The pain behind my smile

I hide my tears when I say your name,
but the pain in my heart is still the same.
Although I smile and seem care free,
there is no one who misses you
…more than me!

THE PAIN BEHIND MY SMILES

Smiles carry many hidden affections. It can be pain, happiness, sorrows, and sadness. A smile is known to be one of the most beautiful things one can see. It has its own soothing effect on someone.

Many times I smile because no one can see the pain I’m carrying within. Many at times people who even care to ask only do so to have something to talk about. I have decided to bear my cross.

No matter how I try to smile and act as if everything is ok. I can’t stop remembering those memories we created together.

Walking down the flyover at midnight while holding hands together was one of the best moments of my life or should I talk about the movies we saw together.

I can’t seem to forget all the moments we spent together even in your sickbay. I miss the fragrance of your skin and the masculine features of your body. 

I try acting as though I can stay without you but I miss you so much that I feel like I’m going insane if I stay another day without you.

Living all by myself has been the hardest pill I get to swallow. Waking up each day and realizing we can’t be together at the moment is tearing me so much.

I really appreciate the happiness you brought into my life without knowing it. You taught me how to be strong. I’m going to keep waiting until you come back to me. I miss you so much.